Thoughts...

I feel abit insignificant. I'm not someone who get frustrated easily with friends, however I will be most upset to bore or trouble them with my stuff - be it a holiday trip when I fell very unwell unexpectedly and delayed the itinerary, or a tired shopping trip which caused my companion to wait longer than usual, or a grumble on the wrong timing to a busy or equally unhappy friend. I feel the guilt, and such guilt is unexplainable to someone who don't understand me...

Thanks to my deary 10 years old friend Miss Chuin. She's crazy, she's straightforward, she's capable of being sensitive and sometimes it's easy to let her know how I feel without pouring it out. Xie le la.

It's CHRISTMAS today. MERRY MERRY XMAS to all!



I feel awkward to date people out on my birthday, so I usually don't. And then with the nearing of Christmas & New Year, I think it would probably mean no one will have the time to spare me anyway... A good friend used to say I have low self-esteem, I guess she's right.

I'm glad this year my cousin asked. I took leave. She applied for off-in-lieu. And there we went to enjoy ourselves... in our dresses!

Gift exchange was fun, especially with a gang of great and fun poly mates. It made everything seems nice - the cozy sofa at Octapas spanish bar and the live band at Indochine Forbidden...

I feel exceptionally lousy today. I feel I'm not being appreciated anywhere, not at work, not in friendship...

Am I worthy of anything, at all?

Where is the passion when I need it most?

Geniune happy people are usually healthier people and vice versa, maybe that's why my body has gone haywire recently...

I need a blue sky holiday.