Things a guy should not do if he likes a girl he just met...

1. Don't keep watching her as if you're waiting to see her stumbles and falls.

2. Don't mention anything about her heavy weight, she's gonna remember that.

3. Don't act intimate with her, it will irritates her.

4. Don't just pick up her fork to use, that is disgusting.

5. Don't ask her to share food with you, that is equally disgusting. You and her aren't that close.

6. Don't ask her to speak up when she's quiet. You should think of a topic yourself.

7. Don't joke with others about how she is angry with what you said when she still didn't talk.

8. Don't widen your eyes and comment about the type of fatty dessert she chose. You probably hurt her feelings.

9. Don't ask her out for a second date so soon when she already gives you the cold shoulder.

All the above mentioned are from my own point of view. Hoho

Yesterday Y was so pretty in her wedding gown. Felt envy and happy for her. E jokingly said "Y, I'm so heartbroken tonight. Come, give me a hug please?" and Y answered "You want a hug? Sure I can give you that. But did you see that guy in the tux over there? I'm afraid he will punch you later" lolx. We laughed out loud. Her husband was very charming too.

I took alot of photographs and I chatted alot of my ex colleagues. It was like a big gathering. Orh yes, I took a picture with the guy who, afew months ago, wanted my handphone number and with a guy technician who had quit from his job recently. He asked me out after dinner, but I lied and said I'm going out with my friends. Since I don't feel comfortable with him kept watching me at the table, I think I shall reject his date.

About the guy who wanted my handphone number in the past...Below is what his colleagues told me...(I removed the names)

C says:
no lah.. T send me back..

C says:
C & A later than me..

-=justy=-"..." says:
Oic

-=justy=-"..." says:
ytd take pic with me de is A ar

C says:
ya loh..

Candy says:
he like u leh..

Candy says:
can give him chance?

Candy says:
haha..

Candy says:
last time he wanna woo you lah..

I don't quite believe in this. How does a person grew to like me when they don't even know what type of person I am...yea...bullshit

Early morning today, B was using the design computer. P asked me to help her print photos which she had already sent to my email, so I took over the computer. B didn't closed his thumbdrive folder and I saw something I supposed he wouldn't want to be read by anyone...

That was his Resumes and CVs, dated from september 2005 to August 2006. Out of curiorsity and KPOness, I opened one of the files. I'm not surprised. I think eveyone here are just waiting for an opportunity to leave. Honestly, I've been feeling slightly down during the weekends. I heard people asking if I've found a job and said I'm crazy when I replied a No. But, strangely, I felt relieved after knowing WWJ and B have also thought of quiting...

Can someone just encouraged me? Tell me "Hz. It's okay to quit if you really dislike your job. You're still young. Take a break and rest a few w weeks then start all over again. Maybe that will give you more motivation to work". I would appreciated it very much... Please don't look at me with widened eyes and said "You think finding a job isa easytask ah? Still rest, plenty of people out there are jobless"

Colleague passed me her wedding invitation card. It's self-made and printed, not exactly beautiful and nice but from her cheerful smile I saw something which I am still searching in my life, Happiness. I sincerely felt happy for her. She's one of those who clicked with me in this office, one of those who gave me advice and encouragment, even though she's from another company. Don't know whether she will be missing me after I left, I think i might be haha. Anyway, she and her boyfriend have been dating for 8 years...that's a long relationship...hereby, wish her happy and xing fu always~~~~

Friday entries:

I tendered my resignation letter this morning. Ms Fake was surprised and asked me why. I told her it was solely because of my own personal reasons, that I would like to have a change of environment, location and working hours. She don't buy it. She insisted that if i really wanted so much to quit, then i should at least let her understand the truth. How am i supposed to start about it? That i hate this company for being so calculative, that i dislike the sarcastic attitude of my incharge and most colleagues? Maybe if i blurt out , she will be furious enough to sack me and save me the trouble of cracking my already stupid brain for crappy excuses , rather than kept persuading me to try for another six months. haha ...

Ms Fake: why not you stay for just another one to two months, maybe by then when you are more settled, you will change your mind? From a friend point of view, I agree that you should see and learn more in differnt jobs while you're still young... But don't you think your time here is quite short? Why be so rush to decide this? It's just a few months ago when you chose to stay...

Me: I've been thinking of this for quite some time. And i really wish to look out for other jobs. (Looked at her and then i covered my eyes) I don't want to look at your face. I don't know what to say...

Ok, my sentence sort of ease that tense moment for awhile. Both of us laughed...

Ms Fake: Think about my suggestion alright? If you really feel like quiting then pass me your letter on monday again. i won't accept it now...

I was thinking why should i care if she accepted it anot...it's my right to tender and she didn;t have any right not to approve...And she's wrong...It have been a total of seven months since i last tendered in March...Till now, I 've been here for one year and five months...hoho...Im being calculative also. This morning parent quarreled again at 4am in their locked bedroom...so loud that it woke my brother and me...I got damn pissed off whenever they do this...to make matters worse...this morning i took wrong bus, met insane people who kept smiling to himself, scolded by a tupid auntie who mumbled fiercely when i stood in front of her in bus for no reason...I had a BAD BAD DAY...

L told me about her relationship issue...She don't know whether to break with her guy anot...and just like me, she kept repeating about leaving him, yet until now they are still togather. I understood how she felt, maybe, because I myself had been vexing over to quit my job or not. I didn't have the right to say "L, be firm. Why aren't you leaving him since you are not so happy with this relationship". I should convince myself to be decisive first before telling anyone else that...It's not easy ya? I knew...When you are in the state of being confused, you just sank deeper and couldn't make up your mind...And a simple disapproving sentence from someone else might confused you even further...

Me: If ever the thought of breaking up with him enter in your mind, then there's a big possibility that you might be having the same problem in future. Maybe you should ask yourself why would you be thinking of that in the first place?

L: I'm not sure...Next time when you are in a relationship, then you will understand...

Me: Ok...so everything i said now means rubbish? lolx

Alright. Maybe she sees no link to what i wanted to say...But i still believe that somehow, no matter it's work or family or love issues, once you have the slightest thoughts of the existance of a problem and you never try to solve it, it will just come back again to haunt you...Thank L for chatting with me, and for making me realize this...

Good
- I could eat and use handphone during office hour.
- I could do work in the design room often.
- I could play window messenger when working (Except not to let either P or B saw it)
- I could practise my design skill and learn administrative work.
- I could get slightly higher monthly salary than other administrative job.
- I could joke with one or two of the colleagues occasionally. (Though not all)
- I could get treat from boss during their birthday, Christmas, Chinese New Year.

Bad
- The Annual Leave is only seven days.
- They deduct leave (And pay when leave is not enough) for lateness
- The working time is from 9.15 to 6.30 mon to fri.
- There is no OT pay. (And often got to stay late to complete work)
- They terminated 3 staff but didn't replace any of them.
- The incharge and boss don't get along well with the staff (Showed black face often)
- Even some colleagues here don't get along well with each other.
- Workers here are expected to do 2 or 3 person work (But no increment)
- They passed sarcastic remarks whenever others come back from lunch late.
- There's no music in the office and couldn't surf the net unless boss is not around.
- They closed for additional one more day during CNY but auto deducted it from worker's annual leave.
- There's less than ten workers in the office now.

Okay…Guess what? I'm updating my blog using the admin computer again. It was becoming a routine. Everyday when I 'm free I would opened my work file and typed the entry using 6pt size font (Which even myself had difficulty reading lolx ) If I've to wear a spectacles someday, you guys know why ya? Heard a funny conversation between B and his associates just now...

A: Kuai dian la...Deng ni hen jiu le ah...Wo deng dao hua er ye xie le...Yao qu ktv chang zhe shou ge le la

B: Hahaha...Hua ben lai jiu xie le ma...

Dots right? lolx! Ms Chuin was asking me about my office interior cause i told her i couldn't surf net/play msn openly or else colleagues might know it when they walk pass. Basically, it was normal, just like any other office, with not-so-tall divider/ partitions. I am sitting right by the entrance, so whoever pass by behind me could see what Im doing exactly...Yes it's a bad sitting arrangement...and one which provide no freedom and privacy at all. I guess even those receptionist from established company will have better privacy than mine...Now, i heard another sarcastic conversation...

E: Where's J? Did anyone of you saw J?

Ber: Nowadays he went off earlier...You don't know?...People early bird ma...Always left early de...don't know who did he meet up with... (Sickening face)

Sonetimes i wonder why must words be filled with sarcasm...and why must people commented so damn much on others business...she could simply said "he went off" yet she like to kpo and add so much of her stupid shit...

Im (like what Ms Chuin always said) "Freaking sian". Monday bluesssss. It's the 4th of Sept today, and since I'm heading to HK on 8th of oct, i got to tender my resignation by this friday once i've make up my mind to quit. Otherwise, I just have to wait till after my vacation to leave. Hoho...Will think about it myself and not bother others with my trouble again (I'm worry friends might avoid me...hahaha)

Over the weekend, went shopping and brought a black cardigan. Yeah right, it's black again (Jun gonna said I'm boring). Anyway, I start wearing that Puma watch. I think I'm greedy, last few days i kept complaining about B's motive, and yet, I'm wearing it now. I think if one day I married a rich old uncle, no one will be surprised...lolx...

I wanna wish someone a happy birthday lolx! We ate prata togather just now and i forgot to tell her that...~~~~ whahahaha....Don't be sad hor birthday gal...lolx...Time now is 12:29.... I'm not too late right? Hope you stay pretty and most importantly, happy forever...

Went Thomson Prata House with Ms Chuin...whahaha She's damn lame tonite...Maybe she's just one of those who get crappy when night came...lolx!...Anyway...we chat alot la...thirsty...Actually i wrote quite a long entry during office today, sent to my hotmail and was going to post it up once i reach home. But now i realised the mail didn't get through somehow...waste my time thinking and typing...