I think my left toes feel funny. It's alright when I'm walking but it hurts while I jog. Win...damn sian

Suddenly, I understand why people got fed up easily when jobless. Probably because they ownself felt useless, that’s why they couldn’t control their mood and throw temper on others. Life is quite contradicting actually. Me, for an example, don’t know what I really want. How many others once felt like this? Or are still feelings like this?

Speaking of my interview this morning, I didn’t go in. I merely walked pass and skimmed the inside. I’m being a real coward when I saw the number of ang mos working there. I left. Then, heading towards the Mrt Station, I called up the person-in-charge and informed her that I’m not coming. I hate myself for whining every now and then when I didn’t even try to help myself, I hate myself for troubling others with my own personal problems when they are already busy with their owns. Just like the darkening of my mood, the skies turn grey too. What a day. I wondered when I could stop acting like a annoying complain queen and move on. Weird thing is, I know I’m being an irritating idiot but still continue it. Recently, someone nagged that I should stop doing stupid things to avoid scolding from others…

I’m noisy only around friends. I talked non stop and made them tired. But, honestly, is there a need to change my way? I thank everyone for their concern and encouragement toward my job interview. I failed terribly yeah. I didn’t even try. PLEASE STOP RAINING!!!

Yo. Finally Miss Yen passed to me my HK trip photos. hehe...






















Their Espirit and Gucci very big norhz











Our accomodation at Metro Park Hotel (Mongkok, Prince edward) wahaha.











Whaha. The mickey mouse MTR...so cute hor...Then, there's the ugly me taken at Disneyland palace. lolx...At night, this place will glow with lights, musics and fireworks.





























Beautiful lolx.
















Don't laugh at me guys. I admit I'm bo liao lolx!!! We are at The peak. Ming xing la xiang guan.




















Whahaha. I'm short and fat beside Mr Andy.










Twins yo.

Forgot to help them deposit money into bank account. They got fed up because the money was not deposit on time to deduct their fee yesterday. They quarreled and scolded that I couldn’t be depend on. Yeah. I thought so too. I’m just a forgetful and lazy idiot. In a situation like this, I really loathe myself. He yelled and reminded me yet again to deposit later. I continued typing this entry without answering him. I’m that bad. Yeah…

A person emailed me to arrange for an interview session with their western boss. Lousy as I always am, now I'm visualising and planning how it would go even though the interviewing date is on next monday. I think maybe I've got the minor social phobia. My chinese is poor, my english is poorer. The more I fear of going, the higher risk that I'm gonna stumble with my words there. I just couldn't stop being scare of...of? of meeting people? whatever. Knocked me out please. If I lost my memory, maybe I would not feel so useless...

07 January 2007

Breakfast:
- Duck rice
- Iced green tea

Lunch:
- Two slices of white bread with curry gravy
- Pear
- One scope of ice cream

Dinner:
- Don't know

06 January 2007

Breakfast:
- Mum cooked dish

Lunch:
- Long john silver
- Iced lemon tea

Dinner:
- Peach bubble tea
- Fried dumpling

Mum nagged that i had on a "too-too" mouth. Why? Was it because I'm not laughing that's why she thought I'm difficult and proud? I'm beginning to worry that as my face get rounder, the so called "too-too" mouth will be more obvious at times. Even my parents and brothers don't like me, then who else will be? This is so depressing ya? Enough thinking. Let me bang my mouth against the wall...Let me bang till it becomes flatter...Then I shall continue banging my whole body against the wall to become thinner since reducing calories intake and exercising doesn't help...

05 January 2007

Breakfast:
- Duck rice
- Iced green tea

Lunch:
- Two bananas
- Two small pieces of chocolate

Dinner:
- Strawberry desert
- Popcorn

03 January 2007:

Breakfast
- Half piece of ba gua
- Two small cubes of chocolate

Lunch
- Fried vegetarian bee hoon
- Iced green tea

Dinner
- Salad bar at Sizzler
- Iced water

04 January 2007:

Breakfast
- Half piece of ba gua
- Water melon

Lunch
- Tom yam mee hoon kuay
- Ice lemon tea

Dinner
- Soya bean curd
- Roasted chicken sandwiches