Boss gave me a Puma watch yesterday. Quite a expensive one. I was thinking maybe he got it from someone/somewhere, and somehow had predicted that I might tender my resignation letter again so thought a gift might avoid it. Honestly, I don't care whether it's branded or not (It's not Levi's anyway). Even if it's something I've been aiming, i wouldn't have appreciated it as much when it's a token from someone whom i don't trust at all. Yes, ask me and I would tell you I don't trust any of my colleagues at all. i'm sensitive ya? I took it home, stared at it long enough and wanted so much to return it back...hoping by doing so would ease the guiltiness and uneasiness i felt after receiving it...If I had read B's motive accurately, that I believed his tactic had worked well on me. It confused me further, not knowing if i should quit or stay. You guys must be silently shaking head, thinking why am i so indecisive and acted exactly like a coward. I complained, and when it's time to leave, i hesitated. Yaya...I think I suck...Ms Chuin is right...i couldn't blame anyone for what's I'm feeling...cause I brought trouble to myself …I’m the one who is usless…

Why am I always being like this…tinking so much…booooooo….

By the way,, Xp had already booked the ticket to HK for us. Will be going for a holiday from 8th to 11th October. I applied for a one week annueal leave on Monday. Hahaha….Hope everything goes smoothly. Heard people said the summer sales in HK will be over by the time i vist and there wouldn't be much to shop about except winter clothings…abit sad…:(

Don't wanna repeat today's incident again...But i just hope someday people who teased and embarrassed others will get to feel how hurting those words could be...Thank Chuin...I'm gonna copied and paste your paragraphs to my blog...

They dunno how much it hurts to say people. To them it's just teasing.. and they do it to make themselves happy and to entertain themselves.. but they nv know how it will affect the people that they have teased. It's called mental torturing. They are abusing us emotionally.. You may think that it's not a big deal and there's no need to take it seriously.. Wait till u experience how ppl ALWAYS treat u like u're stupid (or smth negative) or always said u are one infront of ur face as well as the others. I just hope one of you can copy and paste this to those mindless idiots who like to criticise/tease ppl often. Or maybe one of you reading my blog are one of the people like tat. Get it in your head and be more sensitive can?I'm just super pissed with insensitive brainless people like tat. Fuck off can? Now I know why some people will turned crazy and go off killing ppl. Because they could no longer take it anymore. They just snapped.. Zhen, They will have their turn to taste wat it's like. I dun think u are what they've said. =)

Life is unfair...why does woman mood swing when their period comes? Arghhh

I am frustrated with myself. Even the tiniest matter annoyed me. This morning I received an order from P, and i went ahead to pack the goods since E is on leave. Anyway, I'm damn blur enough to miss some boxes kept on the upper shelves, so I searched only boxes from the middle shelves. Naturally, those boxes from top shelves still didn't caught my small eyes when I turned to leave the store (That's a huge disadvantages of being short and fat ya?). I thought there's no stock left and stupidly I phoned my sales to let him know (Guys, Just laugh and say I'm Stupid...Cause I really am!!)...

We spent the whole afternoon discussing 'how?" through phone. Read carefully, it's the whole afternoon~ I wasted my whole noon~ I realized the presence of those boxes at 628 pm and I felt an urge to strangle myself...The sales gonna be thinking I'm stupid and stoning when I called him back again...

Just now..at home...I raised my voice at ah gong again...Sorry...i really very very pek chek...


-=justy=-"...BOO LA..." says:
i tell my ah gong "I WAN EAT...BUT DUN NEED HEAT IT"

-=justy=-"...BOO LA..." says:
and he listen as "no..i dun wan eat"

-=justy=-"...BOO LA..." says:
so he nag...but nvm...i didn't care him

-=justy=-"...BOO LA..." says:
den papa come home...ask me want heat anot..i dots..den i said heat la..anything.later i eat

-=justy=-"...BOO LA..." says:
den he heat

-=justy=-"...BOO LA..." says:
heat hao le ah gong ask me "u dun wan eat why ask ur papa eat"

-=justy=-"...BOO LA..." says:
den i said "i wan eat!"

-=justy=-"...BOO LA..." says:
den he "waste ppl effort blah blah blah"

-=justy=-"...BOO LA..." says:
den i shout "I WAN EAT...MUST TELL U HOW MANY TIMES I WAN EAT!!!!! I LATER EAT..I WAN EAT!!!!!"

-=justy=-"...BOO LA..." says:
i very bad i noe

Went to Cineleisure with Ms Chuin yesterday...Brought two shorts for jogging but realized one of them is too loose when I tried on at home. I'm praying it wouldn't slide down my butt when I jog tomorrow...hahaha! Anyway...I also brought a skirt for Ms Chuin as her birthday gift....Nice nice yo...I'm tempted to buy one for myself too...But then it's not really my style and there's no L size...(I have such a big fat hip...Sad)...

I did a test which I got from Ms Chuin Blog...here's the result...for which some points aren't quite true...

Your dating personality profile: You matched the following traits:

Stylish - You do not lack for fashion sense. Style matters. You wouldn't want to be seen with someone who doesn't care about his appearance.

Shy - You are often timid around others, though you will open up when the right person comes along.

Liberal - Politics matters to you, and you aren't afraid to share your left-leaning views. You would never be caught voting for a conservative candidate.

Your date match profile: You match with men who have following traits:

Athletic - You aren't looking for a couch potato. You seek someone who is active and who keeps his body in top shape.

Stylish - You cannot put up with someone who is lacking in style. You want an original, someone with flare, someone with good taste.

Wealthy/Ambitious - You seek someone with goals, someone to whom success is important. You would like for this person to open up new experiences and opportunities for you.

When I'm working, Pk msn me and i ignored him. I know I'm bad...I hope he is not reading this...But sometimes he would just type rubbish (About buying lottery and it will be a sure win cause I finally answered him on msn, or about how the sky turn red since I actually replied 'Hi' )...lolx! Trust me, this would no doubt annoyed someone if he/she is busy... Alright, even if he came across this he'd probably agree with me... hahaha!

Anyhow, he today typed something different after seeing me not replying him...And i just wanted to say a simple 'Thank You' to him...Thanks Pk...Thanks for what? Thanks for always listening to me complaining about how dumb, stupid and clumsy I am...always encouraging me that i need to keep trying so i could be sucessful some day...

ﾈｽﾍﾌVgｾ0248 says:
When Thomas Edison invented the light bulb, he tried over 2000 experiments before he got it to work. A young reporter asked him how it felt to fail so many times. He said, "I never failed once. I invented the light bulb. It just happened to be a 2000-step process.

ﾈｽﾍﾌVgｾ0248 says:
juz for you =) take care i go work le

Decided to skip every monday, tuesday and thursday at home. Below is my plan to losing weight...

1. Exercise (Skipping or jogging) 2 - 3 times a week
2. Have Breakfast every morning
3. Eat lesser Fast food (Friends reading this blog, please remind me to dine in foodcourt when we go shopping after work)
4. Buy a mirror (So that i can check if I'm really sliming down)
5. Try to go out on saturday and sunday (That brother of mine is sure to buy tibits and snacks during weekends)
6. Consume lesser rice, noodle, bread
7. Download more songs (I could listen and skip along)

That's about all...can't realli think of much right now...

Yesterday visited the Eski Bar with Ms Yun, Joey and Lele...blehz...Nice ambience but not-so-nice drinks...lolx...Anyway...tomorrow it's a monday and i shall not type too much here...

Went to watch 'Click' with Xp today...It makes me think of how i always said "Monday is coming...how i wish for time to stop here"...And my bro will countered back "You want time to stop here? Which means you're going to miss a lot of things...Friends birthday, family birthday, Your own birthday, Chinese new year, Christmas and so many more"

Yeah...the movie interpreted exactly that...And there's this particular scene which nearly bring tears to my eyes ya? The guy skipped through so much in his life that he couldn't even recalled when his wife had ran off with another man or when his dad had died. The remote controller couldn't rewind his memories back to the day of his dad funeral simply because he wasn't there at all...And the last time he had seen his dad alive, was the day when he raised his voice at him...The old man, always so funny and jolly, had left with tears streaming down his cheek...

Ms chuin told me most people will not treasure things in their life maybe until they had lost them...I agree...Cause i sure as hell didn't cherish both closely-related aunties of mine until they had passed away...I'm cold-blooded huh?

Anyway...Before that movie we dine at Maestro Bistro (Not sure if it's the correct spelling) The creamy chicken pasta and classic chicken pie sux alrite? Real disappointing...was actually planning of having some tasty food and enjoying a good movie...just spoilt my mood alittle ya? bull...

M.B Supervisor: Hi...Are you all here for a movie?
Xp: Erm..ya
M.B Supervisor: What movie are you guys watching?
Xp: Click
M.B Supervisor: Oh...Nice movie...Enjoy your meal...(Smile and walk off)

Guessed what i commented on his politeness? I uttered out loud "He's bo liao huh?" and I assumed he heard it since he glanced back instantly...Maybe the tasteless dishes got alittle to do with my rude remarks...whahaha!

Yea...I told Ms chuin that I'm gonna post up loads of shit here...Why do i have to think of all kind of excuses just to take a half day leave, much less a full day one? Why do i have to look at a charcoal face for almost every working days and i've done nothing wrong? Why do i drag every night when I knew the next morning i've got to go work? Why do i have to feel guilty even when my leave is already approve?

Because i told lies...Because i dislike this job...Because i just wanted to have a one week vacation and the longest leave i ever took were two days in a row...Because my annual leave is only seven days...Because because?

Because I can never be contented and satisfy with what i have now...I hate myself for being like this...Sorry to all my friends out there who probably got to dig their ears everytime i complained to them...

Okok...I'm a complain queen...and yesterday i read an email which sound so true about me...

Blood type B:
1. Cool & Objective
2. Joke alot but could be shy actually
3. Complain alot when upset

I'm angry...blehz...loathe the feeling of being looked down by others...He was the one who gave me the idea and asked me to work it out...but final concept was rejected by him because he thought it was so 'Orh Piang'...boo...

He: This poster is so 'Orh Piang'. What do you think? (Smiling)

He: You sit here whole day and just do this? (Fake smiling again. He forgot he passed me the assignment only in the afternoon!)

He: You seldom look at advertising posters right? (Still smiling!!!)

This is so blehz!!!