10 things to build my bad day

1. Muscle ache. Can't jog. Can't vent.
2. Swollen gum.
3. Feeling fat. Chubby face. Flabby limbs.
4. Flat and frizzy hair.
5. Baking failed.
6. Fighting loneliness.
7. Grey skies.
8. Combating mum naggings.
9. Facing a demented grandpa.
10. Blogging and grumbling at the same time...

Soup Dipping

I was posting on facebook that my vacation in February 'dipped soup'. Now my weight-losing plan 'dipped soup' too. I strained my right hip muscle days ago and I continued jogging, so yesterday the pain spread down to my calf. It hasn't get better today.

Arghh...

The Truth

It's quite a common thing for my brother to say he has a pathetic number of friends.

I seem to have more friends. The only problem is, sometimes I can no longer tell whether they are 'true' or not.

Blissful Marriage!

HAPPY 2011! and CONGRATZ to lovely Jean and her hubby on their marriage. She's sooo beautiful and blissful, we drooled and envied. Lele, with her new hairdo and makeup, looked fabulous in red. Yun wore a nice belt which complimented her curves. Joey, as quirky as always, dressed refreshingly in cheong sum. And thanks to funny teddy bear friend, our table had no lack of laughters. Great night~

Thoughts...

I feel abit insignificant. I'm not someone who get frustrated easily with friends, however I will be most upset to bore or trouble them with my stuff - be it a holiday trip when I fell very unwell unexpectedly and delayed the itinerary, or a tired shopping trip which caused my companion to wait longer than usual, or a grumble on the wrong timing to a busy or equally unhappy friend. I feel the guilt, and such guilt is unexplainable to someone who don't understand me...

Thanks to my deary 10 years old friend Miss Chuin. She's crazy, she's straightforward, she's capable of being sensitive and sometimes it's easy to let her know how I feel without pouring it out. Xie le la.

It's CHRISTMAS today. MERRY MERRY XMAS to all!



I feel awkward to date people out on my birthday, so I usually don't. And then with the nearing of Christmas & New Year, I think it would probably mean no one will have the time to spare me anyway... A good friend used to say I have low self-esteem, I guess she's right.

I'm glad this year my cousin asked. I took leave. She applied for off-in-lieu. And there we went to enjoy ourselves... in our dresses!

Gift exchange was fun, especially with a gang of great and fun poly mates. It made everything seems nice - the cozy sofa at Octapas spanish bar and the live band at Indochine Forbidden...

I feel exceptionally lousy today. I feel I'm not being appreciated anywhere, not at work, not in friendship...

Am I worthy of anything, at all?

Where is the passion when I need it most?

Geniune happy people are usually healthier people and vice versa, maybe that's why my body has gone haywire recently...

I need a blue sky holiday.

Ann Siang Road was named quite suitably - quiet and calming. To us, it is quite a perfect location to enjoy a cup of freshly brewed Tiramisu Latte and a portion of slightly sweetened Chocolate Lava Cake topped with juicy berries. I like Shots cafe, with it's long counterbar and rows of framed photographs.

I love biting into sweet juicy grapes on a sunday morning. Yum Yum.

I extracted part of the lyrics from Elva Hsiao's new song because Miss Chuin said it suits me to a tee...

越美味越是有罪 脂肪找隔壁那位

eat不过七点 饿了就喝水

有美食那些节目都当做恐怖片

美丽的曲线 太油会毁灭

单身的悲惨世界 绝对碰不得甜

再饿一点 再淡一点 （美就是晕眩）

再忍一点 再苦一点 那窈窕已经不远

想瘦瘦瘦瘦 快快变瘦（Youre so so so so so so 靠近了）

然后 终于什么都可以露

要瘦瘦瘦瘦 成仙成佛（Youre no nono no 没有借口）

结果 会换来桃花丰收

这是谁订的规则

Sometimes we forgot that genuine praises are the most beautiful free treats we can give. A few words and it almost usually evokes a 'good' feeling. Most of all, while citicism exposes a person's weakness, a praise does the opposite...

Once in a while, we all need to find our strength to remain optimistic.

Miss Le brought us to another restuarant - Brewbaker's Kitchen&Bar. For some reasons, some friends couldn't turn up at the very last minute and Miss Le wasn't too happy. Luckily I had Mr Teddy there to help cheered her up. I love the stretch of green field at Farmway LRT and those flying kites in the evening sky. Simple. Nice.

I have a weird stomach which bloats like mad after I drank milk and coffee few days in a week. Nevertheless, food and latte are not to be skipped.

Skinny Pizza and Tom N Toms Coffee...

I love the gals. KTV with them is always fun. And, quite importantly, they have the same appetite as me so we can munch for the whole day (and grumble about getting fat the day after). I love the photo I took of them too. I wish Miss Chuin a happy 25th Birthday. Muack!

Happy birthday to my Ah gong.

Why do we cry sometimes? Of happiness, anger, sorrow, regrets or was it because of something else...like emptiness?

How many of us had felt the sudden urge to cry at times? When we don't understand exactly why, but the tears began to cloud our eyes and it trailed down our cheeks too fast for us to hold it back...

I guess it is an indication to hint us that our 'bottle' is full and it is time to convert some 'content' into flowing tears so there is space to store new ones...

I firmly believe that when we are in a down mood, frustration anger and whatever negative emotions we feel will blind our fair judgement. We easily find fault with almost everything we see or hear and no one can really motivate us. No one can help us to get over this period except ourselves...

Time eventually heals. An old saying yet very true. It doesn't matter what sort of sadness we undergo, it is simply a matter of time before problems are solved. Some choose to end a life, some live with opened scars, some walk out of depressions and some become stronger, understanding themselves better... every outcome, good or bad, is a solution on its own.

I'm not indifferent and cold-hearted. Being depressed can be very difficult, I had my share of similiar rough moments when alot things were an eye sore... But then, I'm not a psychiatrist. I don't have many right words of encouragement. I wish my brothers, my friends, those who have caught the depressed bugs, a quick recovery.