Everytime there's a quarrel it was always my fault. I can't remember when had anyone believe that it was someone else fault other than mine. Everytime when I thought things will be better it would always ended up otherwise...

Why do I try so damn hard to patch things up with them when apparently they still hold a grudge?

Why do I feel so damn guilty after quarreling when they are not affected by it at all?

Why can't I be a bad person and stop bothering what others think!?

WHY AM I THINKING SO DAMN MUCH! I wish I could stop...Sometimes I just feel so miserable... so alone...