Demoralized...

The storeman was sacked...reason being "the store only need 1 people...with 2 there will be nothing to do" and that's it. Anyway...it's none of my business, as long as i kept my job. But then, there will be less one person to chat, less one person who clicked with me...so...i am damn demoralised...(WTH...2 had already been terminated after i joined here in less than a year! And both of them worked for only weeks to afew months...Their working attitude aren't bad either...)

It's a suxing company ya? Don't EVER mentioned to me that i've not seen enough of this world...cause i think any company which chose to kick two good staffs out in less than a period of 4 months wouldn't be that great! And any company which didn't replace the staffs who are being sacked or resigned, but simply added the job scope onto another existing staff workload without even abit of pay increment was damn sickening.

Who will the next person out? Me? Probably...

The real unlucky ones are those who stayed behind...

I've got enough of it...blehz!

"Ni ke yi bu yao ze yang dan chun ma? Hen rong yi gei ren bian de" (Direct translate: Can you stop being so innocent?)

I've heard this for countless time all right! So guys...stop mentioning over and over again the things i've already know! It made me feel damn stupid and gullible ya! And seriously...i don't know how others might feel...but i'm kinda upset over this now?

So what if im innocent...innocent is a wrong? innocent is when one doesn't like to chat about anything dirty? or do people just judge someone to be innocent by her/his looks?

E: I think you have to redo the poster. The customer think that it is not exciting enough...

Ok...now...i think i have no potential at all to be a designer too...

Personal Thoughts...Again...

Some of my weaknesses:

I'm noisy, long winded and naggy...

I'm nerdy, timid and stupid...

I've got no fashion sense...

Personal thoughts 2

Orh yea...It's office hour right now. I'm sitting in my little design room and hoping i wouldn't get caught for slacking during my last hour of the day.

I finished my poster ya? (A real lousy one actually) and it again reminded me of how unsuitable I am to be a graphics designer. Nevermind that, my job is to design...until maybe one day the boss find my concept too boring to continue and i'll just quit...

Personal thoughts...

Sometimes a little praise can really makes a difference (Of course, if you overdo it then it will sound very much like a sarcastic remark!)...Anyway, just to say that a simple sincere praise could brightened up people's day and gave someone's the confidence needed to live happier...To the person who allowed me to feel this way recently, thank you...

From my own judgment, the most beautiful ones are those who has the right amount of confidence in whatever they're doing. Not too arrogant and not too timid...Wish someday I will become one...

Hanging dry

Wor...Had been a long time since i last updated this blog. Applied one-day leave today so here i am taking some time off to add a new entry hehe. Xp went for operation to have her four wisdom tooth removed (There's gonna be stitches ya? lolx). Get well soon yo.

Yesterday night Xy asked about further studies. It's good to go back school, but i just couldn't think of what course I'm interested in. I remembered J once asked me during a shopping trip "There's got to be something you really enjoy doing. Drawing?" and i answered "I don't know. Can't come up with any right now". It's been over a year and still I am in square one. Friends might have already reached out for their goals and I'm still hanging aimlessly (Kinda sad ya?). By the time of my birthday this year, wish that i would have everything figure out (Hope so lolx!)

Orh ya. This is to my friend Miss Chuin...
What's happening to you sia. Have visited your blog several times and all those recent entries were so depressing yo. Jiayou jiayou yo. Im also an introvert and I have few close friends too (But then you've got something more than me. A goody goody boyfriend ya? haha) I knew i will be the last person you turn to when there's a problem lolx (I thought every friends of mine will agree on that...am not exactly a good listening ear yo) but maybe i can cheer you up abit la k..whahaha...Go Gal~

Here i found some Pictures of Daniel Wu...Very handsome ya? lolx.

Motive!

Guys, don't ever treat me too well out of sudden...I think I will be scare away lolx!!! I mean, of course my good buddys are supposed to be nice to me ...hahaha!...But if someone I'm not close with (E.g. Colleagues) wanna give me clothes for no apparent reason, then smiled and asked me to pick one...That will be kinda weird?

P: Ger (Gestured towards Y's Office)
Me: Ohok (We knocked and walked in quickly...Thought it's another design project again...)
Y: Which one you think nice? Just take it (Asking me and P)
Me: errrr.....
Y: Black? You always wear black...
Me: Erm...
Y: You like Black?
Me: Yeah...
Y: You unpack it and see if the size fit or not
Me: (Blindly followed what he said...Actualli i don't really like Polo T :X)
Y: Should be can...Na qu

And so, now i 've got a new BLACK polo T (Threw it aside once i reached home) hahaha. I'm still wondering what's his motive !!!! whahaah

Erm.........lost in thoughts

Hoho...A sun night again...Went to my grandma birthday earlier, ate buffet and chatted with cousins (Moi grandma has lots of grandchild and grandgrandchild...I don't even remember some haha) . Nothing special this year, held at the same place and ordered from the same caterer. Everyone just sort of gathered and talked, as usual...

Suddenly felt abit left out at the celebration lolx....but I'm always uncomfortable in big crowds. Not sociable enough ya? I knew I'm thinking too much again (Have been thinking lots every since i started working) It's just that...Arghhh....i don't exactly know what I'm going to type here...why do i start this subject anyway...

I wondered if i ever mention to anyone about this...Most of the relatives from my mother's side are realli good at socializing (Homourous and very friendly?) and i thought I'm the exceptional one...the odd one...It's like they are those sales type (That include my brother~) while I'm the opposite...what a funny thought ya?

Sob...

Everytime i sat in my office designer room...i could hear E's comp playing a song. It's so familiar and i swear i've heard it a dozen times at someplace, somewhere...but i never really catch the lyrics, never really understand what the song is trying to say... Anyway, i thought it was just another oldies which no one will be listening to now...(I've heard it since my? erm...years ago?)

Then Earlier on, i was surfing the net when i came across the particular website... this particular short stories (Touching too...)...and i realized later that it was the lyrics of that same song... Though most people might have already gotten this old lyrics (I'm always slow)...thought i would just post it here...

Love, Me

Collin Raye

I read a note my grandma wrote back in nineteen twenty-three.
Grandpa kept it in his coat, and he showed it once to me.
He said, "Boy, you might not understand, but a long, long time ago,
Grandma's daddy didn't like me none, but I loved your Grandma so."

We had this crazy plan to meet and run away together.
Get married in the first town we came to, and live forever.
But nailed to the tree where we were supposed to meet, instead
Of her, I found this letter, and this is what it said:

If you get there before I do, don't give up on me.
I'll meet you when my chores are through;
I don't know how long I'll be.
But I'm not gonna let you down, darling wait and see.
And between now and then, till I see you again,
I'll be loving you. Love, me.

I read those words just hours before my Grandma passed away,
In the doorway of a church where me and Grandpa stopped to pray.
I know I'd never seen him cry in all my fifteen years;
But as he said these words to her, his eyes filled up with tears.

If you get there before I do, don't give up on me.
I'll meet you when my chores are through;
I don't know how long I'll be.
But I'm not gonna let you down, darling wait and see.
And between now and then, till I see you again,
I'll be loving you. Love, me.

Between now and then, till I see you again,
I'll be loving you. Love, me.

Weekend~

Yeah~ Tomorrow is a fri...happy~...Yesterday i met a crazy auntie on my way back from work. She kept nagged something about "Zhuo zi (Table)" and "Yi zi(Chair)" and then about how important they are to schools, offices, public places in our life. Almost gone mad just listening to her mumbling on bus lo. I closed my eyes and all i can hear are the bus engine plus her voice BTH!!!

Auntie: Chair is very important in our life. Everyone need a chair to sit...the school need chair...the office need chair...the bus stop need chair...our house need chair...If there is no chair, we can't sit... (Roughly sum it up., too long for me to remember and type all)

After she finished her chair speech...she started on her table speech...(Both are about the same...Basically she just replaced the "chair" with the "table") A woman sitting beside her finally got so fedup, rolled her eyes and changed seat...(That's about when I've to turn away before I burst out laughing ya? The young student opp from me couldn't control her grin yo...lolx!!!)

Anyway...there are this two young guy working adults (Most prob friends) choose to sit beside that crazy auntie despite the fact that she is talking to herself...hahaha...Then things happened when bus stopped at auntie's bus stop...

Auntie: #$%$@ (Don't know what language she's using...but obviously she's scolding the guy)
Guy: .... (Blurred)
Auntie: SI TA BO (She stood up, raise her voice and slapped one of the guy lap)
Guy: Oei!
Auntie: SI TA BO @#$% !!!
Guy: LEE SIAO AH!

Auntie became more crazy and started spitting on them hahahaha...And she continued to do that until she got down the bus...That's entertaining huh? whahahaha...

It's a mon!!!

Oh ya...today was quite a sickening day...haha....

B: Hz...Help me print the basecard...Please....(Fake)
Me: ok...but i need to find where i save it in...
B: k...chop chop (which in other words...means fast fast)

After wasting few minutes searching for it to no avail...i remembered B own comp got the file...so i went up to him...

Me: Hey...I think i don't have that file anymore but maybe your comp have...
B: What? (not listening to what im saying earlier)
Me: I'm gonna use your comp to print it...
B: Print lo....this kind of thing don't need to ask me (Irritated)

What the hell...I'm trying to be polite and ask for his permission b4 touching his comp and he find me irritating...blehz...!!!!!! Angry ya? What attitude...qi si wo...but nvm...i just found a cat picture online which really brightened my night...whahha...Though i'm not exactly into cat or any other pets...but this one is real cute...

Arghhhh!

Oh ya...it's a sunday again. Lousy mood again. lolx...I wondered if most of the people out there feel damn lousy on the day before a week of working starts?...Perhaps no...but i sure do...haha...

Did i mention that Gy lent me a set of CD on fri...it's about a very cool-looking jap actor who transform into a completely different person once he reached home...I don't know what's the name of this guy...he looked kind of cute & nerdy when he slipped on a pair of glass and acted crazily in front of his family, especially his wife. Hee...Seems like quite a old drama series ya? but still it's quite nice la...hahaha....(It actually remind me of myself...Crazy crazy de!)

Found some of Kim sung su pic when i surf the net last night...he is the guy who acted in Full house togather with Rain...Charming yo...

Hee hee

Stay at home today. Went to surf new blogskin and with my bro help finally figure out how to change liao. hehe... Thanks Fx alot for helping me with the blog ytd night, and for helping me find a tagboard...thanks ya cousie! If possible, wanna have another shopping trip with her (Our fav accessories ya?) hahaha...Hope she do well in her studies lo...hoho...

Anyway...it's another boring day for me. A saturday but no one date me out...what a saddening case. lolx. Yesterday went to Ritz apple strudel for dinner after work. We ordered some light bite... my fav calamari and garlic bread to share. Still like their mango strudel best! Yummy. Sat there to discuss about the taiwan trip we so excited about...but Xp mama maybe need to undergo an leg operation around June...means most prob we are not going anywhere in July....demoralise liao...no mood for work liao hahahaha...nth to look forward to...

Oh ya...about work...nth much actually...ytd the delivery guy dropped by office to pass me some documents...when i reached out to take it frm him...he paused for awhile and touched my palm...That's quite a lousy move ya? lolx.

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