I don't like people asking about my job...

And I hate people asking about my salary...

Can someone be contented with their job when they are being paid peanuts in comparison to other's of the same age?

Came across this report on google. Totally agreed with what it wrote...

"The first thing people want to do when they get stressed is eat stuff that's bad for them," said Bauer, who counsels Wall Street executives. "But the end result is that they're more stressed out because they're eating something they shouldn't have."

I'm tired. Worked OT for an event today till 9 plus and reached home at 10pm. Events sux, and I don't want to care whether people think my job is fun or not, it's just so stressful to be assigned at the registration table. Apparently, one such friend of mine think there's nothing difficult with handling enquiries from invited VIPs and guest. Does she even understand that there might be complaints and unexpected situation to deal with? Like maybe some unreasonable people might have lost their invitation card but still insist to go in? Worse is when there were several parties/companies involved in the same event, each with their own invited list, and the whole registration area became damn chaotic. Oh ya, and that friend of mine think it's easy to read through and memorise all the event schedules and prodecures when what I touch on during work everyday is something entirely different, not to mention that I'm busy as hell sometimes!

In short, that friend of mine actually made me feel kind of useless and stupid...

Anyway, though I don't think the event is fun, but I do think it's interesting...

Thanks for reading. You guys can go dig your ears now :)

Got tired of asking people out, and was often rejected.

Got tired of finding people on msn, and the only reply I received was a sudden 'offline', 'away' or 'busy' message, as if I'm pestering them.

Got tired of telling jokes, and the atmosphere was still as gloomy.

Got tired of complaining to people, and thinking why am I so whiny.

Got tired of explaining myself, when I know there was no need to...So damn tired...

And that's why I dislike asking people out, I dislike typing repeated "Hihi" to someone who apparently doesn't want to reply me, I dislike being a noisy fellow when someone obviously doesn't appreciate my attempt at jokes, I dislike to be a complain queen whom everyone try to avoid, I dislike trying hard not to be misunderstand but it just make matters worse...

I should add another item to my 'LOATHES' list and that is 'faking MC'. Don't ask me why I still continue doing it even though I really hate the feelings I felt thereafter...

Sometimes, I really wish I can be a bad person and detach myself from the sense of guilt. Maybe, I'm just like a pet who wanted so much to have an approval nod from everyone, anyone whom it path crossed. Yet, I still yearn and choose to do things which I knew will definitely bring about disapproving glance from others. I never learn from my lessons... I'm never contented with what I have... I'm forever dwelling in my own unhappiness, overlooking the vexation I might be causing to family and friends...

How many human beings in this world are as over-sensitive as me...?

Recently, I'm quite surprised that I actually can enjoy shopping alone...

But of course, I still do prefer having the company of friends. It's just that, sometimes when I got so fedup with work, I simply cannot resist getting a tinge bit irritated seeing my shopping kaki stood outside most shops and waited while I obviously am still looking around inside. In that case, honestly, I rather be doing something else which both of us will enjoy, than being conscious of someone else's boredom and quietness. Sometimes, I'd tried to come up with a common topic, only to be shoot down by his/ her short replies...

Perhaps, I'm too sensitive, short tempered, petty. Perhaps, I'm trying to please everyone else and that's why I'm getting more lame...

'Sian'ness can be contagious...

Two questions never to ask the person who date you out, unless he/ she is in a damn good mood:
1. "Why didn't you ask someone else out today?"
2. "Didn't someone else ask you out today?"

If the person already had a date, will he/she still be outside with you now?

MERRY XMAS TO ALL!!!

I think I must be hating my job alot, cause I've been overeating for weeks...and each time after snacking (Sakae sushi, homecooked rice, 2 muffins, tau siar piah, crackers all in a day), I feel lousier instead of better. Spent months jogging to keep healthy, and now I'm destroying those efforts...

My stomach feel like it's going to burst...

Knock me out please!

There, finally uploaded photos from my taiwan trip.
















Wu Jiao Zhuan Pan

Mango flavor Ice cream. Nice...hehe

Snoopyland. Saw me under the umbrella?

Cousin and myself. We are having dinner at one of the restuarant in Kenting. The food sux. Honestly!

Hot chocolate, mango mochi, chocolate cake from their very own cafe, 85 degree C. Abit like our coffeebeans...

Visited the Wen Quan. The one with Jolin in their ads. We didn't get to experience it cause of the tupid big auntie. I thought my phototaking skill was kinda good, managed to capture them jumping with just one try lolx!

Ji Ji train station. Xiaopei mum took this pic, so that would explain why it's abit off....:X

It isn't everyday you can see me so seriously rolling dough!

Shuang shuang guo.

Cold~~~~~ Yang Ming Shan. We were shivering...

To be Continue...

Oh ya, I'm back from Taiwan. Taipei was cooling, temperature between 16 to 24. Trip was fun, except for the shopping part. Though clothes were really cheap, I bought only a bag and a top. I'm not gonna elaborate on it, you guys know why! Toured from Kaosiong, Pingdong, Henting to Tainan, Taizhong and Taipei. We shivered after bathe almost every night lolx!

I actually enjoyed most of the sightseeing, and of course, tasting taiwan snacks!! (Xiao Chi). Our tourguide Ah Bao is a humorous uncle in his late forties. A singapore tourguide named Mark, tall and super muscular with an average look, also went along. I saw him carrying 3 luggages with his two huge arms 0.0 He fell on his butt during the trip, nothing serious, but Ah Bao joked that he felt the ground shook and thought another earthquake was coming. In case anyone wonder whether if there's any youngster in the group, yes! There are 2 guys in their early twenties who partied & clubbed everynite (They asked me to join once) and slept in bus during the day -.-

Here you go, some pictures of the trip...More to come~

There was this event yesterday and all six of us have to be around. The day before, I've been helping to pack notebooks, folders, etc into individual boxes and arranging to have them sent down to cinemas first. I'm responsible for the RSVP of our special invited guests as well. Blasting out e-invite emails, waiting for their RSVP, sending them confirmation reply and consolidating the RSVP list, etc...

My colleague from another department noticed that I was so busy packing for this event, and also for the shifting of our new office, so she offered to lend me her two 16 year-old guy temps for a day. Naturally, I quickly asigned them to help out with the packing of my event stuff and I brief my own temp K to start clearing out our storeroom. I thought I can finally settle down to do my own follow-up work, but the two 16 year-old temps just keep finding me and talking rubbish instead of doing what I asked them to. In the end, I got even busier...

So came yesterday, the official day for our annual trade event. We tried to finish up whatever needed to be done and shared cab to orchard togather. Things went smoothly until my assistant manager realized that there weren't enough folders for all the goodies bags. We are short of 15. What came afterward was a really fierce glance from her. I hailed a cab back to office and rushed back again...

How useless could I get?...And the least I needed was having someone telling me I'm not, it just don't help me to feel any better at all...If you were me, trying so much to not be a blur sotong in vain, how will you feel?

P/S: Thanks yen for hearing my complains and keep responding :-)

Did I mention that I just chopped off my long hair a month ago, to shoulder-length, with lots of layer and the shortest fringe I've ever cut?

Was a little sad at first (Sorry friends for listening to my endless complaints again). But kind of used to it by now, especially after trying out so many different ways of hiding my super-short bangs (Gel, clips, hairbands, headbands, etc). None feel comfortable on my big head except for the thick headbands, which is quite convenient and neat. Recently, I wore it to a relatives gathering. Most of them couldn't recognise me, and then, there were some who thought headbands is ugly, who didn't even hesitate to let me know what's on their mind when I walked pass! Great! Why are there such insensitive relatives on earth who tried and steal whatever self-confidence a person built up?

I complained and I complained and I complained...Non-stop.

My luck just ran out. Glued my mouth. I need to stop feeling sorry for myself...

Thanks ah yun, ah le, ah yen, ah pei for wasting their sms to reply to my never ending whining.

Finally! Finally I could log in to this f**k-up blog...

I felt like crying. For what? I don’t know. Just feel so disappointed, so discouraged, that the only thing I want to do now is to hide under my blanket and cry my heart out. I can’t control my thoughts, can’t stop comparing myself to others. Soon, very soon, my head’s gonna explode. Then maybe I might forget all this shit and be a happy person again…

Sometimes I think I need a psychiatrist…

No, on second thought, I think I need $$ more.

I used to be so happy when friday comes. That means tomorrow is the weekend, that means I can sleep late for two mornings in a row, that means I can enjoy shopping with friends and eat b-lunch with my family...

This was exactly how I was feeling when I just woke up today. I combed my hair, brushed my teeth, changed my clothes, still in a good mood... Until I glanced out of window and saw the drizzling. I hate rainy days. It always make me grey, lonely, moody...

Ah gong is back from the hospital. Tomorrow my relatives are coming by to look after him as he will be needing 24hr care. I guessed my brother will be sleeping in the same room with ah gong at night just in case he woke up and dream-walk again. Kinda tiring, but what else can we do? I think my brother is going to stop his job-hunting for awhile too. Hope that ah gong will recover soon...

Have been working in Cathay for almost 2 months now. Still couldn't click quite well with my 'ang mo' colleagues. Mostly, I just kept to myself during office hour and lunch-in alone. There are times when I so much wanted to tender, partly cause I just couldn't feel the sense of belonging there, and also because the lack of communication between me & them was starting to affect my working performance. Thus, I got scolding so often that I couldn't remember the exact number of times. I'm hanging on now, simply because it's the most interesting job I've had so far. But, for some reason, I knew I wouldn't stay for long...

How can a person work 8hrs mon-fri and not have a single 'friend' to chit-chat with everyday?

Just changed my blogskin. Tired. Going to sleep now. Tomorrow most probably will update new entry.

Good Night.

I hate making choice. Boo.

I felt like trying out again for designing (Provided if I could manage to convince the employer that I'm good, which in actual fact, I'm not). But, another two years of design job might affect the chance of me getting a stable administrative job in future.

This sux.

Suitable Job
- Administrative duties
- Little coordinating work
- 5 days work week
- Off work at 6pm or earlier
- Same salary with previous job or above
- Traveling time within two hours back and fro
- Seldom OT


Am I asking for too much? Perhaps. I'm just a boo boo.

How do people get rid of guiltiness? And who do i feel guilty so often? Pardon me my friends, if you happened to be the one whom I vent my frustration on this two months. Once, I read in Jun Jun blog, telling people not to ask about her lesson cause she believed some people simply asked for the sake of it. She was vexed yea? This situation applied to me as well. Don't ask or comment negatively about me being jobless please. I could deal with three to four of such comments, but as time goes on, i realized I've become very sensitive when people touched on this topic. My temper isn't good to start with, I believed I will explode soon. Try standing in my shoes. If you're reading this and thinking 'She's complaining, not again', well, who doesn't complain when they're upset? Those who don't, might probably be having depression now...


Qns 1: Did you go for any interview?


Qns 2: Did you send any resume today?


Qns 3: Still haven't found a job huh?


Qns 4: Still haven't slack enough huh?


Qns 5: You're jobless now and you're still thinking about buying phones and going tour?


Thanks to Miss Pei for telling her mama this when her mama asked about me "You know what people hate most? It's when others asking whether you have been searching for a job or have found a job, out of concern or not. It's okay to ask me, but you better don't ask her this or she will get irritated. If she've found one, trust me, words will spread"


If you're my close buddy, you should know by now that I've already found a job and will be starting work this coming monday. Wish me luck.

I hate it when people misunderstood me. Yea, and I also know that I shouldn't be bother to explain more because I couldn't change the way of how others think. I believed there are also times when I misunderstood people. From the way someone talk, sometimes what was meant to be simply a friendly advice could ended up like shooting him/her down.


Example 1:


Gal A: Boring shopping here. I want to exercise. I want to swim.
Gal B: Shopping is also a form of exercise.
Gal A: I want to lose weight. Shopping doesn't help one lose weight.
Gal B: Hmm, shopping also help to burn calories but not as much.
Gal A: It don't work for me, and, don't work for you as well. Don't lie to yourself.


Notice how the last sentence could easily be misunderstood.


Example 2:


Gal A: There's one new shopping mall around here.
Gal B: Which?
Gal A: It's new. I didn't know it was here until my friends told me. I don't even know it exist, you confirm don't know. Let's have the fries. Looks yummy.
Gal B: It don't tast that yummy to me now.
Gal A: Don't lie to yourself. You like it as much as I do. Eat it if you wanted to.


Okay. This is another one. Don't assume and make the other person feel foolish, though your intention might be totally harmless.

I guessed alot people, including me, still haven't master the art of good communication. Hoho.

I quit. Here I am, jobless again.

歌曲:Another You
歌手:Cascada

So many times I was alone and couldn’t sleep
You’ve left me drowning in the tears of memory
And ever since you’ve gone I’ve found it hard to breathe
‘Cause there was so much that your heart just couldn’t see
A thousand wasted dreams are rollin’ off my eyes
But time’s been healing me and I say goodbye

‘Cause I can breathe again, dream again
I’ll be on the road again
Like it used to be the other day
Now I feel free again, so innocent
‘Cause someone makes me whole again
For sure
I’ll find another you

Could you imagine someone else is by my side
I’ve been afraid he couldn’t keep myself from falling
My heart was always searching for a place to hide
Could not wait till dawn to bring another day
You’re not the only one, so hear me when I say
The thoughts of you, they just fade away

Sometimes I see you when I close my eyes
You’re still a part of my life

‘But I can breathe again, dream again
I’ll be on the road again
Like it used to be the other day
Now I feel free again, so innocent
‘Cause someone makes me whole again
For sure
I’ll find another you