Okay. P kept calling me "xiao xi fu" when she see my hair...and she said why I clip until so cute. I took it that cute meant 'funny'. lalala. Funny mehz? boo boo. Then she asked me wanna grow long hair izit. She suggested me go perm. Perm...PERM...can't see she see that my face is so round, just like my body. lolx. Okay..nth..it's just a comment by her lalala.

This morning i'm very sad. I woke up and my hair is very messy, then I brushed my teeth and changed. I looked fat in almost every outfit. So, I finally decided to clip my hair into a bun and just wear jeans plus a plain white T-shirt. It's my bad day today. boo. I wondered what some of my colleagues would say later. They like to comment on my dressing and hair de. lolx! They meant no harm la, but sometimes they're too frank. I've got no confident in myself, how? Bang wall. Yesterday went to Marina square with Miss Y. So sian. Shop till sian. lolx. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH...

Some people are just so good at changing face. Should go for the "Bian nian" competition in China. Probably would stand a chance to win champion. BOO. She told me not to scare the new girl away...we've been interviewing again and again because all the new colleague quit after a day or two...I think she is the one who are frightening them off. Look at those big shitty eyes. Listen to her sarcastic words. Tell me, which normal human being couldn't go for a better job. It's not like they gave high salary or good benefits. Okay. I admit I'm one of the dumb ass who didn't leave blah. I remembered she used to treat me like this too...

The new girl is afraid of her...Every new girls are...lalala. Not to forget almost every of our existing colleagues are too! What does that say about her, that she makes one lousy superior who couldn't click with any of her staff. yaya. Right! And she is an hypocrite. lalala. Yaya...work is full of hypocrite but not one as lousy as her. She couldn't even fake well...bahz

Promised Miss Chuin that I would update today. I kept my word! lolx. Casino Royale was nice. Charming man and charming lady. Lots of action. wahha. I didn't find Daniel Craig good-looking at first, but change my opinion after watching it. He is very tough and macho inside the movie. I think I'm becoming a 'hua chi'. lolx. Did I also mention that I watched Step up? It was another good one. Great dance moves and hot guys! Erm...I think his name is Channing Tatum. Wor~

It's a friday! lolx. I guilty now that I didn't accompany Miss jun today. Sorry~ lolx...Poor her got an insensitive boyfriend who didn't want to accompany her when she is alone. I shall help curse him in my dreams tonight and he would have a swollen ear in the morning. Okay. Miss Chuin. Here it goes. What kind of man I dislike...I dislike irresponsible, indecisive, self-centered, petty, immature, ungentlemanly man. Example: Those who couldn't make up their mind, who took such a long period to think but still couldn't come up with a decision, especially whether they truely like a girl or not. Those who are always talking big about themselves and how important they are. Those who make a lizard sound instead of apologizing after knocking into a woman. Those who didn't spare a thought for girls, saying insensitive stuff. Etc. lolx. Okay. I admit I am a difficult woman. I sux too. lolx!!!

This world is full of strange and CRAZY people. A guy called the office to enquire about our newspaper ad job vacanies. He asked "Are you looking for male candidates?" I told him we are looking for female staff. He don't seems to get it so I repeated that sentence again. What the hell...he scolded "F**k You lah" and hung up on me....Mister have I done anything wrong. Blame it on yourself for not being a woman!!! I'm sure my attitude was fine. Blah. WEIRD PEOPLE ARE ALL OVER THE PLACE.

I went jogging with Miss pei yesterday. She told me something really disgusting, which kept me laughing even after we started to jog. hahaha...Sunday Pei took non-aircon bus 265 home, and the bus was full of shit. Yeah. It's shit, wasn't certain if it's from pet or human but it's shit. There's a puddle of shit near the door, and it trailed along the floor towards the end. Then, there's another big puddle of shit. Pei kept breathe out of the window because it's too smelly. Others did the same as well. Only the driver acted like nothing happened. Pei said he should have stopped the passengers from broading the bus. But i wondered how could he stop...I couldn't imagine him opening the door and shouted "Sorry. This bus is full of shit. Take the next one' or 'There's shit on this bus, come up if you could take that smell"...That would be kinda funny right and i doubt no one would believe until they have seen it themselves lor...dots...

That stupid man didn't deliver newspaper to us again. This is the...what...4th or 5th time. Boo. P asked me why don't have cause I open the letterbox daily...Why? Ya why? How do I know why...weird question. If I know why I wouldn't be working here liao~ Does she expect me to say 'It's a public holiday today so there's no newspaper'?. Obviously it's because the person forgot to deliver~~~~~~ Why...why is people asking question when the answer is so obvious. This reminded me of when I'm eating Wan Ton mee...and a friend of my mum saw and yet asked me "what are you eating?"...-.-.-.- What? Do i look like I'm eating chicken rice! weird weird weird...

Don't know who else will be reading this entry. I'm tired of this. And maybe because I'm tired of all her persuation, I don't hold my decision so firmly anymore. I noticed I don't take long hours of my night to consider things like how I used to, I don't go around asking for friend's opinion on msn so much now. For the more comments I received (positive or negative), the harder it will be to make up my mind. This was good. I would live happier. I would have lesser depressing stuff to deal with. Sometimes, I could relaxed and slack in office without feeling guilty...There's a chinese saying 'Kan po liao' (Erm...direct translate...'see torn aready'? haha. I'm still lame)

Miss P asked for my help. She claimed this was the last time (She always did). She had employed a lady who will be starting work tomorrow, but the lady had to go on leave from 25th of November to 8th of december since she had booked air ticket to tour Australia (Others who came for interview are weird people. I saw :x). So coincidently, my last day is on the 31st of November while P own leave is from 5th to 8th of November. Anyhow, in between there would be a week gap whereby neither P nor new lady are in. P hoped I could be here during that period (15th of December last day). I looked at her and gave a unwilling face. I guessed I am slightly pissed off with her, even though I had a smile on my lips then. So I told her I've helped her so much, how could she expect me to stay longer? Didn't she mentioned it will be the last time she asked me to stay previously? and what if I need to go for interview or attend urgent matter? What happen if this lady quit before me?...I forgot what else I said...

Okay. So she promised me she wouldn't ask me to stay anymore if the new lady tendered. This shall be the last time. She would do the work herself and hire a temp. She would allow me to go for any interview from tomorrow onwards during office hour (Tell her a day in advance) and wouldn't deduct my pay. I thought I have nothing to lose. I could rest till after my birthday to find in January and there will be better job opportunity since people are probably tendering after getting bonus. I agreed. I knew she must be feeling super sianed that she got to compromise so much...BLAH BLAH...I don't care...

Miss Yun, this is the name of the artist who act in Death Note as L - kenichi matsuyama.

It's a boring friday. Nobody is on msn to chat with me! I envy those who knock off at 5.30...so good norhz...but then not forgetting they start work earlier than me. I've been repeating Lee hom ' Yong yuan de di yi tian' over and over again, too lazy to change songs...I'm a pig...

Chatted with Ms Chuin about her younger sister. She wrote a email for her mei (Didn't know Ms Chuin could be such a good sister wor hehe). This part is written specially for Ms chuin whaha. Don't be so vexed by her attitude ya? I don't know much about the actual problem existing between her and your family. Probably you could start by trying to talk to her patiently, like how I sometimes listen to my brother advices? I understand that parents/slibings nag because of worries, but too much nagging worsen things. I am really upset whenever I quarrel with them, and every time it not only makes me angry, it makes me feel pretty useless. It felt like nobody, even my closest kin, bother to understand me. I remembered they kept telling me 'In times of trouble, friends might abadon you but family will always be there', and I wondered why weren't they be there for me at that rough moment. When a person get angrys they tend to not seeing things clearly. hoho. That's how some families fell apart? hehe..I'm not sure if reading this helps...just my own point of view ya?

I've watched the 'covenant' or 'convenant'. Except for the few not-bad-looking guys inside, I thought the movie was pretty boring towards the end. Their power was simply throwing bubble-like balls and flying around dodging others bubble-like balls. They talked alot. They kissed alot. Bascially they kissed and talked more than they fought. It wasn't really a bad show, it's just that it didn't exactly fit what I've expected. Okay. If you guys wanna catch it, I would suggest watching it during the weekdays. But then, this was only my opinion, it doesn't apply to all right? hehe...

Next I shall watch Step up, which is a movie about dancing. Probably tomorrow I could watch it with Ms Yun. Hope it wouldn't disappoint me...

I wondered just how many out there got the same problem as me. That is being too self-conscious of oneself. Here is what I've came across from the net...

Self Consciousness In Action:
You're standing with a group of friends, happily chatting away, the conversation going along nicely. Then someone says to you, "John, you're good at that, why don't you tell us how you do it?"And Bang!, the way you feel changes completely. It's as if a spotlight has been turned on you and the rest of the room lights dimmed. All of a sudden, your cheerful, easygoing nature of 10 seconds ago is nowhere to be found! What happened?Well basically, your focus of attention has shifted to yourself, otherwise known as self consciousness. You may also have received a shot of adrenaline as a stress response.

I often feel like this. Like when a topic is thrown on me by strangers or not-so-close people, I will be tongue-tied. Boss sometimes would bring me along to meet his cilents and associates. I dragged going there because I wouldn't know what to say when their focuses were on me, especially when I'm in a room with group of experienced businessmans/ professionals. Really envy those who could speak so well no matter in what occasion. I loathed to engage in a meeting too, but it's not something which i could avoid right? haha...

I'm going to watch 'The Convenant' later. Happy. Hope it's nice. Saw Ms chuin and her family photographs in her blog, so pretty wor. whaha...

Recently there is this malaysian guy who took my hp number and msn contacts through my colleagues. Got quite tired of answering him cause he kept on repeating the same questions. Blahz...zzzzz

1. Hihi. How are you?
2. Are you busy?
3. Any plans tonight?
4. Where are you going? Can I join?
5. Have you reach home?
6. Can I sms you to chat tonight?

Hahaha. I admit I am quite a impatient and cold-blooded girl...

Two colleagues of mine celebrated their birthday yesterday. Went to 'teahouse' at china square to eat their dinner buffet. Nice. haha... This morning everyone asked me "Isn't yesterday your last day?" I told them I will be working till end of november to help P. They then said "I think you should work till end of this year. You work till end of november no bonus bo hua". I didn't explain more about the agreement between me and P. Now I'm considering whether i should if the next person ask again...I got a feeling they thought I'm stupid or something to throw away that one year bonus...

I'm super bored and sianed when i came into office earlier. OMG. I think I'm regretting for staying....

I'm a indecisive coward...

A colleague did personality test for me using my Han Yu Pin Yin name. Kinda true haha. I have two Han Yu Pin Yin surname so I don't know which one is for me...I think it's 'Ju zi'...

Why am I always sia suaing myself. Went to buy the-O from Coffee shop. I told the uncle "The-O da bao". He mumbled don't know what shit and kept glancing at me. I ignored him and he turned to his wife to mumble again then both looked at me and laughed happily to their own joke. IDIOT. After that, I went to a cake shop to buy bread. Again, the auntie gave me a teasing stare. What the hell is wrong today. kns kns kns. I'm not sensitive, they are acting just so weird. Do i look stupid or what!

They were teasing J again, our store man. They said he owns a large land in Malaysia and so decided to visit his home over the weekend for a holiday. J face changed and shook his head "I don't have enough food for u all". What the? We are only joking yo. hahahaha. He is very serious. I remembered once B bluff him about treating us for sushi dinner, he too became nervous and said "I didn't bring money out" hahaha! bth.

I’m super sleepy now. Lolx. Yesterday went to watch death Note. Not bad but there's no ending. Think have to follow up on their part two. Hehe.

These days I have plenty of time to write my blog. I'm bored in office, and equally bored at home. After the computer broke down, I realized just how much I relied on it to kill my boredom when I'm free. How coincidence that it went down right before the last few weeks of my working day. I shall upload pictures of my Hong Kong trip once I get it repaired. Recently, here came super lame colleague. He sat beside me and always talks crap...

In the morning, I was chatting with Ms Chuin on msn. This funny man turned and asked me "Hi. Are you P?"

I minimized the window "Erm. P is the one sitting inside. I'm HZ"

"Oh. Ok. Now I know" He nodded and pointed to my computer screen "Then what's your friend name?"

He was referring to the blinking msn window. Very dots.

In the afternoon, I was doing some data entries. He stared at the calendar "Can you do me a favour?"

He looked quite serious so I asked "What? I see if I can help"

"It's important. You must help me”

"Ar huh?"

Still eyeing the calendar, he said "Can you help me shift the deevapli to Friday?"

I think he is too stressed up and eat crab last night. Lolx. Rubbish.

I am really 'Freaking" bored. Guys, please don't laugh when I told you my childhood ambition is to be a fashion designer, particulary in wedding gowns. However, I aslo agreed that I doesn't have a great fashion sense and doesn't have my own unique dressing style so I'm afraid of studying it. haha. Weird me. Beside that, I too have interest in hair styling, script writing, wedding planning and alittle of graphics/ jewelry designing...Surprised surprised? lolx! Ok...which of the above suits me...erm...

Orh…I'm back from Hong Kong for almost a week by now. Brought nothing except food. I can't upload the photo to my blog because my home PC broke down. I presumed it was something to do with the spoilt hard disk since whenever I tried to reformat it, a error code 'Cannot detect the hard disk' appeared. Yesterday, I decided that I'm really too bored so I went to the vcd rental shop. I asked for the Korea drama 'Gong-Ye man wang fei" but it was all rented out. So "sway". I couldn't update my blog these few days too. So basically I ate and slept, ate and slept . Don't be surprised if you noticed me getting fatter...

I'm counting down to my last day in this company. A new assistant came on Monday and quit yesterday. Reason being, she recently suffers from depression and ops (Don't know what that is. Another form of mental illness perhaps" so she couldn't cope with the stress here. Nobody knows how true that is, but she is really quiet. Anyway, P and E talked to me again. She knew I've interest in graphics, thus wanted to offer me their designer position and remove my administrative work. The salary would be the same of course, just that I do not have to touch on admin anymore. My decision wavered (Slap me please). I thought It is a good opportunity for me...I'm considering... I doubt I will stay in the end…