Boss gave me a Puma watch yesterday. Quite a expensive one. I was thinking maybe he got it from someone/somewhere, and somehow had predicted that I might tender my resignation letter again so thought a gift might avoid it. Honestly, I don't care whether it's branded or not (It's not Levi's anyway). Even if it's something I've been aiming, i wouldn't have appreciated it as much when it's a token from someone whom i don't trust at all. Yes, ask me and I would tell you I don't trust any of my colleagues at all. i'm sensitive ya? I took it home, stared at it long enough and wanted so much to return it back...hoping by doing so would ease the guiltiness and uneasiness i felt after receiving it...If I had read B's motive accurately, that I believed his tactic had worked well on me. It confused me further, not knowing if i should quit or stay. You guys must be silently shaking head, thinking why am i so indecisive and acted exactly like a coward. I complained, and when it's time to leave, i hesitated. Yaya...I think I suck...Ms Chuin is right...i couldn't blame anyone for what's I'm feeling...cause I brought trouble to myself …I’m the one who is usless…

Why am I always being like this…tinking so much…booooooo….

By the way,, Xp had already booked the ticket to HK for us. Will be going for a holiday from 8th to 11th October. I applied for a one week annueal leave on Monday. Hahaha….Hope everything goes smoothly. Heard people said the summer sales in HK will be over by the time i vist and there wouldn't be much to shop about except winter clothings…abit sad…:(

Don't wanna repeat today's incident again...But i just hope someday people who teased and embarrassed others will get to feel how hurting those words could be...Thank Chuin...I'm gonna copied and paste your paragraphs to my blog...

They dunno how much it hurts to say people. To them it's just teasing.. and they do it to make themselves happy and to entertain themselves.. but they nv know how it will affect the people that they have teased. It's called mental torturing. They are abusing us emotionally.. You may think that it's not a big deal and there's no need to take it seriously.. Wait till u experience how ppl ALWAYS treat u like u're stupid (or smth negative) or always said u are one infront of ur face as well as the others. I just hope one of you can copy and paste this to those mindless idiots who like to criticise/tease ppl often. Or maybe one of you reading my blog are one of the people like tat. Get it in your head and be more sensitive can?I'm just super pissed with insensitive brainless people like tat. Fuck off can? Now I know why some people will turned crazy and go off killing ppl. Because they could no longer take it anymore. They just snapped.. Zhen, They will have their turn to taste wat it's like. I dun think u are what they've said. =)

Life is unfair...why does woman mood swing when their period comes? Arghhh

I am frustrated with myself. Even the tiniest matter annoyed me. This morning I received an order from P, and i went ahead to pack the goods since E is on leave. Anyway, I'm damn blur enough to miss some boxes kept on the upper shelves, so I searched only boxes from the middle shelves. Naturally, those boxes from top shelves still didn't caught my small eyes when I turned to leave the store (That's a huge disadvantages of being short and fat ya?). I thought there's no stock left and stupidly I phoned my sales to let him know (Guys, Just laugh and say I'm Stupid...Cause I really am!!)...

We spent the whole afternoon discussing 'how?" through phone. Read carefully, it's the whole afternoon~ I wasted my whole noon~ I realized the presence of those boxes at 628 pm and I felt an urge to strangle myself...The sales gonna be thinking I'm stupid and stoning when I called him back again...

Just now..at home...I raised my voice at ah gong again...Sorry...i really very very pek chek...


-=justy=-"...BOO LA..." says:
i tell my ah gong "I WAN EAT...BUT DUN NEED HEAT IT"

-=justy=-"...BOO LA..." says:
and he listen as "no..i dun wan eat"

-=justy=-"...BOO LA..." says:
so he nag...but nvm...i didn't care him

-=justy=-"...BOO LA..." says:
den papa come home...ask me want heat anot..i dots..den i said heat la..anything.later i eat

-=justy=-"...BOO LA..." says:
den he heat

-=justy=-"...BOO LA..." says:
heat hao le ah gong ask me "u dun wan eat why ask ur papa eat"

-=justy=-"...BOO LA..." says:
den i said "i wan eat!"

-=justy=-"...BOO LA..." says:
den he "waste ppl effort blah blah blah"

-=justy=-"...BOO LA..." says:
den i shout "I WAN EAT...MUST TELL U HOW MANY TIMES I WAN EAT!!!!! I LATER EAT..I WAN EAT!!!!!"

-=justy=-"...BOO LA..." says:
i very bad i noe

Went to Cineleisure with Ms Chuin yesterday...Brought two shorts for jogging but realized one of them is too loose when I tried on at home. I'm praying it wouldn't slide down my butt when I jog tomorrow...hahaha! Anyway...I also brought a skirt for Ms Chuin as her birthday gift....Nice nice yo...I'm tempted to buy one for myself too...But then it's not really my style and there's no L size...(I have such a big fat hip...Sad)...

I did a test which I got from Ms Chuin Blog...here's the result...for which some points aren't quite true...

Your dating personality profile: You matched the following traits:

Stylish - You do not lack for fashion sense. Style matters. You wouldn't want to be seen with someone who doesn't care about his appearance.

Shy - You are often timid around others, though you will open up when the right person comes along.

Liberal - Politics matters to you, and you aren't afraid to share your left-leaning views. You would never be caught voting for a conservative candidate.

Your date match profile: You match with men who have following traits:

Athletic - You aren't looking for a couch potato. You seek someone who is active and who keeps his body in top shape.

Stylish - You cannot put up with someone who is lacking in style. You want an original, someone with flare, someone with good taste.

Wealthy/Ambitious - You seek someone with goals, someone to whom success is important. You would like for this person to open up new experiences and opportunities for you.

When I'm working, Pk msn me and i ignored him. I know I'm bad...I hope he is not reading this...But sometimes he would just type rubbish (About buying lottery and it will be a sure win cause I finally answered him on msn, or about how the sky turn red since I actually replied 'Hi' )...lolx! Trust me, this would no doubt annoyed someone if he/she is busy... Alright, even if he came across this he'd probably agree with me... hahaha!

Anyhow, he today typed something different after seeing me not replying him...And i just wanted to say a simple 'Thank You' to him...Thanks Pk...Thanks for what? Thanks for always listening to me complaining about how dumb, stupid and clumsy I am...always encouraging me that i need to keep trying so i could be sucessful some day...

ﾈｽﾍﾌVgｾ0248 says:
When Thomas Edison invented the light bulb, he tried over 2000 experiments before he got it to work. A young reporter asked him how it felt to fail so many times. He said, "I never failed once. I invented the light bulb. It just happened to be a 2000-step process.

ﾈｽﾍﾌVgｾ0248 says:
juz for you =) take care i go work le

Decided to skip every monday, tuesday and thursday at home. Below is my plan to losing weight...

1. Exercise (Skipping or jogging) 2 - 3 times a week
2. Have Breakfast every morning
3. Eat lesser Fast food (Friends reading this blog, please remind me to dine in foodcourt when we go shopping after work)
4. Buy a mirror (So that i can check if I'm really sliming down)
5. Try to go out on saturday and sunday (That brother of mine is sure to buy tibits and snacks during weekends)
6. Consume lesser rice, noodle, bread
7. Download more songs (I could listen and skip along)

That's about all...can't realli think of much right now...

Yesterday visited the Eski Bar with Ms Yun, Joey and Lele...blehz...Nice ambience but not-so-nice drinks...lolx...Anyway...tomorrow it's a monday and i shall not type too much here...

Went to watch 'Click' with Xp today...It makes me think of how i always said "Monday is coming...how i wish for time to stop here"...And my bro will countered back "You want time to stop here? Which means you're going to miss a lot of things...Friends birthday, family birthday, Your own birthday, Chinese new year, Christmas and so many more"

Yeah...the movie interpreted exactly that...And there's this particular scene which nearly bring tears to my eyes ya? The guy skipped through so much in his life that he couldn't even recalled when his wife had ran off with another man or when his dad had died. The remote controller couldn't rewind his memories back to the day of his dad funeral simply because he wasn't there at all...And the last time he had seen his dad alive, was the day when he raised his voice at him...The old man, always so funny and jolly, had left with tears streaming down his cheek...

Ms chuin told me most people will not treasure things in their life maybe until they had lost them...I agree...Cause i sure as hell didn't cherish both closely-related aunties of mine until they had passed away...I'm cold-blooded huh?

Anyway...Before that movie we dine at Maestro Bistro (Not sure if it's the correct spelling) The creamy chicken pasta and classic chicken pie sux alrite? Real disappointing...was actually planning of having some tasty food and enjoying a good movie...just spoilt my mood alittle ya? bull...

M.B Supervisor: Hi...Are you all here for a movie?
Xp: Erm..ya
M.B Supervisor: What movie are you guys watching?
Xp: Click
M.B Supervisor: Oh...Nice movie...Enjoy your meal...(Smile and walk off)

Guessed what i commented on his politeness? I uttered out loud "He's bo liao huh?" and I assumed he heard it since he glanced back instantly...Maybe the tasteless dishes got alittle to do with my rude remarks...whahaha!

Yea...I told Ms chuin that I'm gonna post up loads of shit here...Why do i have to think of all kind of excuses just to take a half day leave, much less a full day one? Why do i have to look at a charcoal face for almost every working days and i've done nothing wrong? Why do i drag every night when I knew the next morning i've got to go work? Why do i have to feel guilty even when my leave is already approve?

Because i told lies...Because i dislike this job...Because i just wanted to have a one week vacation and the longest leave i ever took were two days in a row...Because my annual leave is only seven days...Because because?

Because I can never be contented and satisfy with what i have now...I hate myself for being like this...Sorry to all my friends out there who probably got to dig their ears everytime i complained to them...

Okok...I'm a complain queen...and yesterday i read an email which sound so true about me...

Blood type B:
1. Cool & Objective
2. Joke alot but could be shy actually
3. Complain alot when upset

I'm angry...blehz...loathe the feeling of being looked down by others...He was the one who gave me the idea and asked me to work it out...but final concept was rejected by him because he thought it was so 'Orh Piang'...boo...

He: This poster is so 'Orh Piang'. What do you think? (Smiling)

He: You sit here whole day and just do this? (Fake smiling again. He forgot he passed me the assignment only in the afternoon!)

He: You seldom look at advertising posters right? (Still smiling!!!)

This is so blehz!!!

I felt like posting something up here...those very personal thoughts of mine...but just like jun...I'm afraid that people who read this might be offended...

Here just a simple question to my friends...

1. What do you guys think of my character...Am I a weakling?

Before, the impression i gave others was not quite as important to me as now...I have been feeling pretty lousy these few yrs because of how others see me...Honestly, I'm losing that wee bit of optimism I used to have and I don't really know myself anymore...I became so conscious of my too plain appearance and couldn't recall what my strengths are...Jun, you are partly right about the doll...I wanted to be wild...I wanted to be strong, confident, smart, independent, sociable, capable and charming...I dislike to be the person I am now...

'Nonchalant' don't exactly fit me well...I'm guilty whenever someone is hurt by my words...I'm guilty when someone feel ugly because of what i say...And I'm sorry that good friends usually don't receive any praises from me face-to-face (Unless you took a knife to my neck)...That doesn't mean I don't think well of you guys...Really...

Miss Chuin kept nagging me to update my blog (Cause she's too bored) lolx...Erm...Actually there's nothing to post up...hahaha

Yesterday i took a full day mc to slack at home...(Xp smsed me 'I heard that someone's on mc today, Gei gei again huh! What illness do you have? I wonder how come doctor always get bluff by you!!!' lolx!) i wasn't really rotting alright? Hahaha...Such a unkind cousin of mine...that makes her out of my birthday celebration list...BLEHZ...Anyway...I've got flu and bad cough so i wasn't really buying a mc ya? (I lost abit of my sweet voice :X) hahaha

So today when i reached the office, there's a pile of work waiting to be done...And colleagues are asking me "Are you alright? You look seh seh de" Fakers...I knew I'm bad..whahaha...Everytime i returned to work from a day of medical leave they will asked exactly the same question...Buay sian ah! :X ok...I'm bad again...lolx...But then, maybe i do look abit seh seh la...cause B actually helps to take pictures...That's quite a miracle...

Hoho

Went marina square with Miss Chuin...finally got to see her newly permed hairstyle hahaha...Erm...i think it's quite nice and refreshing...But obviously she's not too happy about it...why? lolx!...

Me: Okay la...not bad ma...
Miss Chuin: Not as curl as before...(Gimme a sad face)
Me: I thought that's what you want? Not too curl, like the taiwan model...
Miss Chuin: But waste money lehz...

Dots...lolx...Nevermind, i finally got to taste the waffle from...erm...how do i spell it..galerie? hahahah My english sux...Yum yum...hoho

erm...

I broke my mirror today...the one i used to make sure my hair don't go out of place (though it always do)...I thought it might be a start of bad luck...how? Maybe complain to others might change it...hahaha...Anyway, i kanna cut by it also...not deep...not serious...just bleed quite alot for awhile...I think it should be okay...Miss chuin said i shouldn't believe in that..whahah


-=justy=-"...Blehz...BLEHZ...I live up in the mountain..." says:
i broke a mirror
-=justy=-"...Blehz...BLEHZ...I live up in the mountain..." says:
oops
Ú i vethed...nâ i onnad Moo! says:
hor
-=justy=-"...Blehz...BLEHZ...I live up in the mountain..." says:
...
-=justy=-"...Blehz...BLEHZ...I live up in the mountain..." says:
how
Ú i vethed...nâ i onnad Moo! says:
hm
Ú i vethed...nâ i onnad Moo! says:
.
-=justy=-"...Blehz...BLEHZ...I live up in the mountain..." says:
and i cut by it also
-=justy=-"...Blehz...BLEHZ...I live up in the mountain..." says:
i think it's bad luck
-=justy=-"...Blehz...BLEHZ...I live up in the mountain..." says:
how am i gonna lose tat bad luck
-=justy=-"...Blehz...BLEHZ...I live up in the mountain..." says:
hahahaha
Ú i vethed...nâ i onnad Moo! says:
dance lor

I think Mr kun is very lame..he asked me to dance? Dots...No link...haha

Happy stuff...

It's a friday. Since the anticipated weekend is near...and i've posted up a whole lot of depressing entries previously...I shall update something worth smiling for today...hahaha...lolx!

Things to feel happy for:

1. I earn enough to spend on some stuffs i like (Though I hate my job!!!)

2. I communicate quite well with sliblings and parent (Some families might not...)

3. I own two Levi's Jeans~ (My fav...just seeing it make me happy abit)

4. My mood gets better when i could make someone laugh (I know sometimes i'm lame...lolx)

5. Im not exactly ugly...just no fashion sense and have a weird taste (At least i don't look like a monster ya?)

6. I get cheer up on most weekends (All my family members are kinda funny)

7. I have good cousins and few close buddys to accompany me when free (Though not much...)

8. I have got some friends who are always there to hear me complain...thank you :P (Hope they don't hate me)

9. I found a new hobby...which is to read thriller when I'm bored (Call me a nerd...but time will pass much easier...lolx)

10. I feel good when I smell nice (whahahaha...Dior perfume...having it make me slightly happier too...And lucky there's enough clean water to let me bathe 3 times a day haha)

That's about all...can't think of anymore to add on...if you guys remember things that will make me happy about myself....tell me ya? hahahahaha!

Complain Queen...

Life could be so simple in the past, yet much more happier than now...If only i could be just as easily contented...

Call me petty, unforgiving, immature (Whateva you could come out with)...I remembered all those unkind words people had said about me, as well as those names of people who had treated me like dirt or played me around like I'm a dumb fool...I could forgive alright?...but i couldn't forget so don't ask me not to think about it...

To those insensitive relatives & friends of mine...they certainly got no brain cause they didn't noticed however minor their criticism might be, it could still stung and hurt like hell...especially to those youngster who had felt inferior and depressed enough...blehz...! And I thought adult should be much more perceptive, some of them showed otherwise ya?

Alright...Now..i supposed i got to apologise to those who are offended because my words...I'm straightforward and I blunt without going through my mind sometimes...I'm cold and i don't
concern for people around me...I'm a complain queen and i always complain!!!...I guessed maybe I'm simply a self-centered and dispassionate girl everyone dislike...haha

Nothing much...

I'm not sure why I'm here to create a new posting...I've got nothing to update lolx.

This coming saturing will be my boss birthday and he's hosting a party at his condo's function room. Since I'm not very happy with this company, i shall not be attending. I know most probably those with loads of working experience (E.g. Mother, father, brother) will persuade me to go. After all, it's the birthday of someone who pay for my wages. Yaya...blehz...

Anyway...who knows what's the meaning of "Blehz"??....duh -.-"

Nerd...

Can someone be a nerd, and still looks pretty...?

Definitions of 'Nerd'...
- a person who is extremely interested and knowledgeable about computers, electronics, technology, and gadgets
- an insignificant student who is ridiculed as being affected or studying excessively
- A foolish, inept, or unattractive person

The three difinitions are kinda contradicting ya?...Anyhow, I guessed 'nerd' doesn't really hold a good impression in most people...

But then to me, Nerd doesn't nescessary means...

1. He/she wears spectacles (Yen...so you're not)

2. He/she wears shirt that button up right to the neck (So miss chuin...you're not)

3. He/she reads (I hope I could say I'm not too...)

4. He/she is too quiet

5. He/she don't drinks or club

6. He/she likes to stay indoor

7. He/she never follows fashion trend

8. He/she don't socialize well

Dream guy...

This entry is written for those who thinks, or once thought, that I'm a les...

Just because i didn't show any physical attraction to the opposite sex, or haven't found my better half, doesn't means I don't like to fall in love with them...In case some of you might want to question, yes, i've been fond of someone before...but never deep enough to consider stepping into a relationship...I got no intention to rush myself, to accept anyone who came along my path (There's none so far)...though sometimes i might feel alittle empty inside...

And...I don't go way out for looks (Yaya...make a stupid face if you felt like it). I wouldn't expect him to be all good-looking and charming while i'm absolutely conscious of my own dull appearances...So don't tell me to lower my standard...that's stupid...Lastly, Miss chuin...i don't go for bad boys...i really don't know why almost everyone assume that...

My dream guy:
1. Has his own character and style
2. Caring and understanding towards me
3. Homorous and witty (Avoid acting like a clown)
4. Mature and calm (loosen up when it's time to relax)
5. Knows how to socialize with people
6. Surprise me on special occasion
7. Gives me freedom when nescessary
8. Be there for me when i needed him to be
9. Don't smells funny, bathe and wears perfume or fragance
10. Not stingy
11. Don't wear jeans/pants/shorts above his waistline (I think Xy knew what I'm refering to)

Preferably own at least one Levi's jeans (I knew some might be rolling their eyes now...lolx I'm kidding alright?)